CHEF and HEAD BOTTLE WASHER

href="http://pics.livejournal.com/racerx7/pic/00005dhz/"></a <3 Diane Elizabeth Clymer <3 ~1974 2009 ~ I was not ready to lose a friend so young ... and I am trying not to be sad ... to celebrate the warm glow that was her smile .. to look back on the giggle's we had ...but it just seems so wrong and Unfair Sleep well my sweet ..for now we keep you close in our Hart's <3

I have so Much .. I am a Really really a lucky guy ... I have someone to CALL at the end of the day ...I love what I do ... I am Artistic ... I have good friend's a loving Home ...really I want for Nothing ... But Lately .. I don't know what to say ~ I am less than Happy ~.. mY wife has a brilliant Career and Is rocking the house at work ... but our time grows less and less ... not only her fault really( mine is eating my head) and I suck for saying this .. but I envy her.. she is a Rising star in her Field and I am Fighting to keep the door open ... it's a ruff Biz.. I knew that going in ... but man It seems I can't Catch a Break these day's .
I really feel like shit for even writing it down ... but I wish I was doing half as well as she .. it has always been this way if I look back ... sometimes I am doing better than she ... and some times its the other way around but the last 2 yrs have really taken a lot of the fight out of me .. I am tired .. and there is no down time in Sight ... Fight or go down swinging
I am not bitching believe it or not ... at least I got a shot at fighting for it ( alot of my friends have no such option) but well the economy is kicking the shit out of my Industry just now ( not only mine I know) I am just having Problems being Creative and Tired at the same time ~ the Green eyes of jealousy look Look poorly on me~

I have not posted In a bit... partly due to not having much to say and partly due to working my ASS off... and Honestly..I know it sound's sad, but Recently I have really fallen in love w/ my job all over again(yes I am a freak) working the long hr's and loving it(although a bit tired here today but it was soooo worth it)
Last Eve I PLAYED HOOKIE!!!!,and went to Steam Punk Ball ..I can say without any chance of untruth it was the hottest ball ever.... no really ... luckly this led to Scantly Clad dancer's and lot's of CHILLED Champer's.. ; D always a good combo in my book.
I did not get to Dance with all that I wanted to, but those whom I was lucky enough to get to dance with were Brilliant and I thank you.
A special thanx to the young lady whom I danced the Blue Danube w/(you know whom you are) it was my fave and always make's me smile, thank you so ; D
Today was all about up early and Working out before Sunday Brunch...it was well attended and very very festive hee hee he Ms.Wolfe brought her family in...nice to meet mom after all this time, they all very sweet and I took great joy in feeding them lot's of Bacon and Slow Roast Pork...oooh the yummy's of it all
That Reminds me ... for my next trick... dinner service

HMMM is Romance for someone eles or is it for myself?..Truth be known I am A Very Romantic Guy and love being that way,... sooo tuff call..and as I have been Married for long enough that she is well and Truly Jaded With flower's ,Hand Made Chocolate's and thing's that Sparkel...don't get me wrong she like's them(very much so) but I am the guy whom never forget's An Anniversary, Birthday, Valentine's what have you.. and I fear I have become a bit predictable ... Tragic Actully.... Sooooo for my 15th Wedding Anniversary... IT WAS TIME TO SWIM UP~STREAM and do thing's a bit differently.
I woke her up at 5am 3 day's before said Anniversary..(dangerious choice there I must say) by dropping Hand full's of Rose Petal's on her head(it took three hand full's) at that point she said in a very very stren voice..ummm what the hell is on my head??? "ya know.. it's kinda dark in here but I am almost sure those are rose petal's dear"...(gotta wait a beat here..) "why" ???she ask's... well I needed to wake you and it seemed like a fun way..; ) at this point she start's throwing said rose petal's at my head and well... I had no choice but to return fire...only fair even if I did start it..while flinging flower petal's all about the bedroom..."why did I need to be woken up at 5am???"... becouse honey if I woke you up at 6 you would only have 1/2 hr to pack for Maui...(insert Sceam here).
Romance is an every day thing i should think.. it's the cup of tea you bring her when she does not feel well, it's knowing she will ALWAY'S RUN LATE and not caring...it's a face full of rose petal's

This last weekend our kitten of 15 year's did not survive her surgery(charlie was her name) she is survived buy her friend's Mishia&Kevea...whom are still kinda looking for her around the house.Quite sad really(I is a giant marshmellow and don't care who know's)
She was a very... very good kitty who never bit anyone and was alway's up for a game of chase the~ribbon or mousie or whatever ~as well she liked treat's more than a little bit...she will be missed and the house feel's odd without her...we laid her to rest under the Pineapple Sage in the garden that she loved so well..
bye charlie...maah

oooohh I am ready for Zombie ATTACK...Well just for opener's the house is on the side of a hill..(easy'r to defend ya know) and as a my dear friend Gregor is so fond of saying..ya just can't have to many cannon..; D they look so festive during the holiday's ...kick in some boiling pitch over the stair's and it's zombie time

Middnight ...almost with out question, the only problem is that 4~5 am thing...it's when I do my best work...tuff call actully

ok I am old... ELO eldrado.. the one with ruby slipper's on it..wore the sucker out...In an odd twist, last year I happend on a itune's mix with one of the cut's on it...still sound's pretty good actully...but I have the memory's to go with those song's so ... it could just be me

I taste a liquor never brewed –
From Tankards scooped in Pearl –
Not all the Frankfort Berries
Yield such an Alcohol!

Inebriate of air – am I –
And Debauchee of Dew –
Reeling – thro' endless summer days –
From inns of molten Blue –

When "Landlords" turn the drunken Bee
Out of the Foxglove's door –
When Butterflies – renounce their "drams" –
I shall but drink the more!

Till Seraphs swing their snowy Hats –
And Saints – to windows run –
To see the Tippler
Leaning against the – Sun!

Norma Jean Baker...hmmm The Main Kitchen At the SAVOY in london..empty of cook's but fully stocked Larder plz...I'll do the cooking thank you very much... a single table for two set in front of the chef's reaciving line...white table cloth and chilled bottle of 1952 CRYSTAL Champer's, a small bowl of fresh Raspberry's... the rest is kinda personl... but think 9 1/2 week's (fridge scene) meet's some naughty film NOIR bit's and you won't be far off..; D

Stone Fruit are coming on super strong ... the white Peach's and apricot's being in my mind there yummiest just now.. hmmm what ele's the Hierloom Tomato's are going off the hook as well... that and the warm weather have lead to an Hierloom Tomato Gazpacho on my menu (very very popular)..Scored some of the BEST BLACKBERRIES EVER~bar none!!! bigger than my thumb and crazy sweet(eating one right now.giggle)..would be a travesty to cook with them actully.. so I am thinking fresh on french toast with Golden Raspberry's Talk About eye candy..oooh yis and just so EVERYONE KNOW'S I split the very last piece of Carrot Cake with my wife...cuz I know what's good for me..thanx Elizabith..you the bomb girl..My kinda troupe leader!!!

This is only funny cuz I HAVE ONE!~!! of all the thing's I have lost...I miss my mind the most..umm and sleep oohh sweet sleep ;)

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch. You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain
Set me free, leave me be.

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're
everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that the memory of you is keeping me down.
You’re on to me, you’re on to me and all over…
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.

Pie...BIG TIME...got to have it warm(although cold pie eaten like pizza out of the fridge late at night has a certian charm) with real wipped cream...no can's pleaze and Vanillia Ice Cream...home made being the bomb...but store bought will more than sufice.

OK...So i may sound a bit like a broken Record player here but...My Girlfriend.. my date.. my better half.. she's that last phone call at the end of the day that keep's me sain...the one who make's it all better and has my back no matter what...She is Middnight picnic's in the living room after 14 hr work day's... the one who look's at a plate that would make Wolfgang Smile...and say's ...umm it's ok..not your best though... and can PISS~ME~OFF like no one ele's with just a lift of her eye brow...so I have to push that much harder and can achive my best...she is easter basket's full of chocoalate before work and a little note on my Mirror that say's"drink more red wine" the celler is full...yea all that stuff and ton's more ...my cohort..my pal..my wife..I hope you guy's get as lucky as I did the day I married my best friend...

Because I could not stop for Death –
He kindly stopped for me –
The Carriage held but just Ourselves –
And Immortality.

We slowly drove – He knew no haste
And I had put away
My labor and my leisure too,
For His Civility –

We passed the School, where Children strove
At Recess – in the Ring –
We passed the Fields of Gazing Grain –
We passed the Setting Sun –

Or rather – He passed us –
The Dews drew quivering and chill –
For only Gossamer, my Gown –
My Tippet – only Tulle –

We paused before a House that seemed
A Swelling of the Ground –
The Roof was scarcely visible –
The Cornice – in the Ground –

Since then – 'tis Centuries – and yet
Feels shorter than the Day
I first surmised the Horses' Heads
Were toward Eternity –

I was born in 1965, at home on Haight Street...at a party ..ya mom was a day tripper..; )they say the first thing I did was promptly piss in the Dr's face...(yea I was shocked to)
So we lived on a third story flat for sometime it seem's and at one point they put the Crib in the tri corner window's that many of the Victorian House's of that area have...
I must have been about 2or3 and hand been put down for my Nap by the baby sitter...Even at that age I rarely did what I was told(le shock) Soooo, ofcourse I climbed up on the rail around the out side of said crib and started walking around the out side ..not unlike a tight rope..saddly mom was on her way home from work and could see my knew trick from like a block and a half away...I spied her at about half a block away... at a dead run waveing with both arm's up at the window's(god what a pain in the ass kid I must have been) I stopped and started to wave back...all the while balancing on the top rail of my crib and waving down at MOMMY from three story's up threw plate glass window's..; D this is my earliest memory...
Just to finish the story No... I did not fall... by the time mom blew by the babysitter reading on the couch READING I had walked half way around the TOP of said Crib(away from the window's) and.. yes.. the babysitter was fired...I still am a rotten kid at hart ...

When a man loves a woman, he watches her sleep, thinking:

as midnight to the moon is sleep to the beloved.

A thousand fireflies wink at him.

The frogs sound like the string section

of the orchestra warming up.

The stars dangle down like earrings the shape of grapes

When a woman loves a man, she wants him to meet her at the

airport in a foreign country with a jeep.

When a man loves a woman he's there. He doesn't complain that

she's two hours late

and there's nothing in the refrigerator.

When he says, "Ours is a transitional era,"

"that's very original of you," she replies,

dry as the martini he is sipping.

They fight all the time

It's fun

What do I owe you?

Let's start with an apology

Ok, I'm sorry, you dickhead.

A sign is held up saying "Laughter."

It's a silent picture.

"I've been fucked without a kiss," she says,

"and you can quote me on that,"

which sounds great in an English accent.

I scored the very first if the Golden Raspberry's(way yummy) as well blackberry's were looking nice(could not pass up) and to round things out I found some fire brand pluot's...(a hybrid of plum and apricot) that are a very very deep red inside, I see a gallet for these.
I am thinking some Braised Lamb for the menu,with a White Bean Cassulet and Fresh Rosemarry,ooh yis ....and we are in the season for Squash Blossum's...filled with goat cheese and fired in a sweet corn fritter batter...not sure... but perhap's an ancho chile and lime aoli with that last one...hmmm hell I would eat it.. ; )

O, gather me the rose, the rose,
While yet in flower we find it,
For summer smiles, but summer goes,
And winter waits behind it!

For with the dream foregone, foregone,
The deed forborne for ever,
The worm, regret, will canker on,
And time will turn him never.

So well it were to love, my love,
And cheat of any laughter
The death beneath us and above,
The dark before and after.

The myrtle and the rose, the rose,
The sunshine and the swallow,
The dream that comes, the wish that goes,
The memories that follow!